How do i drown this pain,

That has consumed my brain,

I feel so helpless and frail,

That i can tell not the time of day.

Is it day or night?

Or is it dark or bright?

But how can i tell,

When i am trapped in this hell.

My thoughts running wild,

To end it all or to fight,

To fight to be well again,

But my hope seems faraway.

It is really up to me,

If i want to be trapped or free,

But when there is no will,

It just makes it harder to heal.